so lucky me here got a day off today. came back around eleven and i have to be back tomorrow morning. aint too bad if you ask me. my bike course starts next monday and its gonna drag for a month. the good thing is that its STAY OUT, which means i can come home everyday! outstanding.

the crazy things we do for love. or like. whichever.

before you leave,
before you run away,
remember who you leave behind.

i guess i never realised that my choice would affect some of the people around me. it was supposed to be something that i wanted and i still want till now, but after brother asked me that question it struck me that everything ive ever know and everyone ive ever loved or cared for is going to become a memory once ive formed new ones. its like starting with a blank canvas.
starting all over again where no one knows you.

im hoping that you wont be the one regret that i have.

i cant remember the last time i said this about someone but, you look amazing. im not sure how else to put it, so pardon my crudeness.

so marks the end of my bslc and in case some out there were wondering, im going to 41sar. in laymans terms im going to be in armour. vocation: scout. let the fun begin i say.

other than the run on sunday morning, this weekend shall be free and easy. ill go where the wind takes me.



Hollly Wood Died - Yellowcard

there she goes again,
racing through my brian.

last week. then hopefully ill get a week off the following week. *fingers crossed*

so let me slip away

if only you knew.

one extra. two nights offs. one off in lieu. nothings else important to mention.

i dont know why i bother, but i just do.

im beginning to wonder if this persistence of mine is going to pay off eventually. i mean i hope it will, but there is a definite possibility of nothing coming out of it at all. whichever the case, im right here waiting for you*.



the harder you struggle, the deeper you fall.

i feel like an overused record player. broken. battered. tired.

the last 3 days take the honourable mention for being the worst days of my training thus far. it wasnt as bad as i expected it to be but it wasnt that pleasant either. whatever it is, i came, i saw and i dug.

my com is really pissing me off right now cos all my music and videos are GONE. plus my setting are all screwed up. so the more i use it the more agitated im feeling as i type this quick entry.

ah everyone should just fuck off, die and burn in hell.

a day filled with bed and shelf hunting is a day well spent. found a gorgeous bed which is a queen. yes a queen all for me. =X i can hardly wait to move. heh.

just one more week of suffering and the last two will be a breeze. lots of nights offs and off-in-lieu's on the way so everything will fall into place nicely in time to come.

i smell a house warming barbeque on the way some time in the very near future.

oh have i ever mentioned that i really really really hate digging. bloody hell fuck shit.



all that ive got to pull me through is memories of you*.

with or without you.

the blowers daughter and the time traveler's wife.

-why is love intensified by absence?
-because we take people for granted.



more tomorrow.