=)

the essence of happiness is in a single thought of you*.

fatigue reigns supreme. tiring week. period.
more to come in the following 2.

on a lighter note, i was told just last week that im going to become an UNCLE in like 8 MONTHS time. gosh this is exciting. i know it seems trivial butttt its kinda a big deal since junior is gonna be the first of the new gen. heh. uncle jon. sounds great. =)

so many decisions so little time. in the span of 12 hours i.e TODAY, i have to decide on the lighting and colour schemes for my new room. bleah. for now, black is the new everything. fingers crossed, my new "pad" will coming out looking decently emo-ish.

later.

ive had you so many times but somehow i want more.

why is it that the jerks and assholes always get the girls? its like they hold their affections so well that girls seem oblivious to the fact that they're such assholes.

its true, nice guys always finish last.



=> Shaun* : i know what your feeling. i know all too well how it feels like to be treated like shit/dirt. and worse still to be taken for granted. i know it hurts but hang in there man.

aften 10 things last night, i was reading through some old stuff and i came across this.

Love is not passion. Love is not an emotion. Love is a very deep understanding that somebody somehow completes you. Somebody makes you a full circle. The presence of the other enhances your presence. Love gives freedom to be yourself; it is not possessiveness.

and now look where we are. we've come a long way id say.



lets be nothing at all.

i remember what i wrote on my paper when they asked us back in bmt what we wanted to achieve at the end of our 8 weeks.

i wrote "To be happy."

back then, it seemed so much easier to find happiness. everything was just simple. but now, i dont know about many things anymore.

is it possible to fall in love with someone you've never met?


i guess we just aren't going to happen. not anymore.

cupcake*: i know your phone's outta commision for now but when its up and running drop me a msg eh? one more thing, will you be free next weekend?

absence makes the heart grow fonder.

its been two weeks? maybe more, i cant remember. i know its wrong but sometimes its hard not to think about you.

last night was not too bad. mostly spent entertaining the girls, avoiding probing questions and catching up with brother. =)

"the road is long, but my heart will go on."

maybe to you im just another face in the crowd.

all that shit aside, this week was pretty good. culminating with my personal best of 9.30 for SOC this morning. of which i am highly satisfied with. like alan heng said, bslc will be our physical peak. i certainly hope so.

bbq later on. time to get wasted.

Its better to have love and lost than to have never loved at all.

maybe like what brother said, i should take a step back and look at the big picture.
maybe im trying too hard too fast.
but what if i dont do enough and end up losing you? then what happens? i live with another regret in my life? this might be my only real chance. my only shot. who knows what might happen if i dont take it.

i really dont know anymore. tell me what i should do.

i have two versions of Boston. and im happy. or at least im pretending to be. apparently the best way to be happy is to pretend that you are.

why does having hope seem to be a sin nowadays? its like we're always being punished for having hope. worse still the product/punishment of hope happens to be disappointment. having hope only sets you up for disappointment. so whats the point in hoping at all? some say that its better to go through life without any hope so you never get disappointed but others say what type of life is a life without hope? im still deciding on who to believe. but i can firmly say im beginning to lose hope in many things.

maybe we wont happen after all. i should have know that it was all wishful thinking on my part.
its times like these when i wish i could have an eternal sunshine of the spotless mind kinda moment.

back from my most unfortunate two week "confinement".

all i can say is the road ahead will be hard to bear but i know that we will make it through. all nine of us. most of the initial apprehension and fear has dissipated but then again its still early and anything can happen. but till shit happens, what happens in camp stays in camp.

missing you loads bro. you know how much our friendship means and seeing you two times in the last two weeks was prob the best thing that could have happened. major outing next week. yes? Love, your brother.

You*. you prob know its you if your reading this so ill make it short, sweet and simple. thanks for coming down to accompany me on my nights out. it really meant alot since you took time out and rushed down for me considering it was pretty last min. and after last nights talk about feelings unspoken and the uncertainty ahead, we'll work it out k? you and me.

as for my virgin experience that was liquid room, all i can say is that its too small. among other things, the night was highly eventful to say the least. im just glad everyone and everythings ok now.

To Lead. To Excel. To Overcome. - Officer Cadet School