so im off to SISPEC tomorrow. hopefully i wont get fucked on the first day by my warrant. *fingers crossed* and im praying that there wont be like some 3 week confinement of sorts cos that would be really really sad. but until then, ill be thinking of you*.



October Nights - Yellowcard

She said I think I'll go to Boston...

I think I'll start a new life,

I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,

I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,

I think I'll get a lover and fly em out to Spain...

I think I'll go to Boston,

I think that I'm just tired

I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind...

I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset,

I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice...

Boston... where no one knows my name...

Boston - Augustana

and my wasted heart will love you always.

the heart is like a pin cushion. every time someone special enters your life, a pin is inserted into your heart and it takes up a space in it. how long the pin stays in is indefinite. it could be a day, ten days, ten years or even until the day you die. it all depends on how your fate with that person plays out. but one thing is for sure, once someone leaves your life and the pin is taken out, a small space is left behind. no matter how insignificant the size of the hole, the point is that there is a hole. eventually the hole will close up, and any mark of the pin being there might be gone forever. it always hurts to have someone leave your life, but you know what hurts more? wondering how it would feel to have that one person enter your life cos you somehow know that this one person might never enter your life at all.

Remember tonight, for it is the beginning of always. A promise. Like a reward for persisting through life so long alone. A belief in each other and the possibility of love. A decision to ignore, simply rise above the pain of the past. A covenant, which at once binds two souls and yet severs prior ties. A celebration of the chance taken and the challenge that lies ahead. For two will always be stronger than one, like a team braced against the tempest civil world. And love will always be the guiding force in our lives. For tonight is mere formality. Only an announcement to the world of feelings long held. Promises made long ago. In the sacred spaces of our hearts.

best night ever. period.

if not for anything, your* company alone was good enough to make this one of the most perfect nights ever. if only things were different, we might actually happen.



Cigarette (Live) - Yellowcard

so...home alone on a beautiful saturday night. not quite what i expected to be honest.

a summary of the last 2 days or so. revisiting the oc season one. raspberri vodka with red bull. night safari. junk food. graphic novels. falling in love with seth all over again.

if not for a sligh fever alot more could have been accomplished i say.

the more i slip into self denial, the more i know that i might be falling in like with you*.

im not sure why but im beginning to feel as though life is passing me by too fast. its as though i hardly have any time to just sit down and appreciate the things and people around me. which is sad cos we dont really know whats gonna happen to us tomorrow or any other day for that matter. its like nothing is permanent nowadays. maybe im afraid. afraid of change cos i dont know what its going to bring.

why cant we all go back to the way we were?

and so it is, just like you said it would be.

i am eagerly awaiting its arrival.

ok so here i am 15 mins away from GSD and im gonna make this brief. dad's coming back around 3 and im booking in around 8. ive gotten most of my stuff done and im really looking forward to the next 2 days for obvious reasons. in addition mum's going away for about 4 days which will then lead me to thrashing the house. till tuesday.