last day of an excruciatingly painful yet highly bittersweet year. with new beginnings up ahead and partings being left behind its time to move on to bigger and better things in the new year.

you* and i had something good and our ending was for the best i guess, and i know your happy now. so im glad.

the big a's took up such a big part of life that being able to enjoy the company of the people around me was hardly even possible. but im glad that all of you were part of my life, esp the guys*. you know who you are.

just an interesting point i would like to note. anyone realise how time almost stood still before the 16th of november (last paper)? but incredibly after the 16th time just whizzed by. weird.

parting shot. Whats worse than not having any money to spend? Having money and not knowing what to do with it. fuck man.



The Used - Let It Bleed

yes please do.

ive wanted this for so long. but now we cant have it.

i think pay day is today. and that makes me very happy.
plus i need more games to keep me occupied so a trip to queensway should be in order.



Street Drum Corps Feat. Bert McCracken - Happy Christmas (War Is Over)

Help me now or hold me down

I feel my world is tumbling

OASIS ANNOUNCE SINGAPORE AND HONG KONG 2006 SHOWS

Oasis are pleased to announce that they will extend their Asian tour in Feb 2006 to Singapore for the first time and play the Indoor Stadium, Singapore on Thursday 23rd February and return to Hong Kong for the first time since 1998 to play the Asiaworld Arena, on Saturday 25th February.

Full ticket purchase including on sale details are below;

Singapore – on sale 22nd December Tickets:S$160, S$98 (Standing) S$160, S$98 and $68 (Seated) Available fromSISTIC outlets plus S$2 sistic feeTel: SISTIC 6348 5555web: www.sistic.com.sg

Hong Kong – on sale 23rd December Tickets:HK$750, HK$450 (Standing) / HK$750, HK$550, HK$450, HK$300 (Seated)Available from ALL HK TICKETING & TOM LEE OUTLETSTel: (+852) 3128 8288Web:http://www.hkticketing.com/Enquiries: (+852) 2838 8384



HOLY SHIT. DO YOU KNOW HOW BIG THIS IS? FUCK. THIS COULD BE THE ONE DEFINING MOMENT IVE BEEN WAITING FOR MY WHOLE LIFE. WITHOUT A DOUBT IM GONNA GET THE 160 TICKETS. ANYONE ELSE WANNA JOIN ME? =))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

since nobody cares, why bother living at all?

Hate.

Oysters? Diamonds? Conch Chowder? Spanish fly? Amateurs. Poetry? Flowers? Lingerie? Perfume? Pretenders. The truest, most powerful aphrodisiac isn't any of these - it is hate. Sex does not live in out heads or our hearts, sex lives in our bowels, in the dark spaces within and below. Sex resides in our loins where hate festers, masticating us from within until we explode in a rage of passion. I am hate. I was not born of God's heart or spirit, but emerged from his mighty taint to expose the power of hate, to show that it is the envy of love. To love someone is to think of them three times, five times, ten times a day. To hate them is to never have them out of your thoughts. To hate someone is to be smothered by them, overwhelmed by feeling, made alive by their very existence. Love can be cured by a slight, by gossip, by rumor, by a pair of socks left unhampered or a slip of the tongue at a dinner party. Love is fragile. Love is the lie we tell ourselves to make all other lies manageable. Hate is pure, though. Hate endures against all logic, against all argument, against any attempted reconciliation. Send me chocolates, I still hate you. Say you're sorry, I still hate you. Fix what you have broken, I still hate you. And what is a more powerful, complete and devastating expression of hate than sex? Is there a better way to focus your hate than to purify it in the places where it is most comfortable? Have sex with someone you love, then have sex with someone you hate and then tell me which is more satisfying. Tell me who you would rather see vulnerable, empty, weakened to their most base and animalistic - a lover or an enemy? I pity those that love me more than those who hate me because the haters feel what I feel. The haters see me as I see them. I am bound to the haters by experience. To hate me is to understand me, to understand me is to love me - and to be loved by me. My experience of what you call love is limited, and that love is poisoned by pain. Hate, though? I'm lousy with hate. Hate is where I live. Those that claim to not hate might as well claim to not breathe or eat or think. To exist is to hate. To be alive is to understand that "you" is the truest word and that the only way to join with another is to connect with their hate of you - and your hate of them. I carve because I hate. I hate because I seek connection with the world. I seek understanding, a shared experience, a brotherhood with man. I yearn to be hated, so please, hate me my lovers. Hate me with all that you are. Climax with hate at the very thought of me and together we will see the world.

some people crave power.

some people crave fame.

some people crave fortune.

some people crave recognition.

you know what i crave for the most? to be loved. and to feel wanted. cos right now i feel like im all alone in the universe. sigh.

creepy surroundings dont change the fact that the new place is beautiful. so people do come down and give your support eh? (message me for details)

this will be a trying week with so much going on. im not even sure i have enough time for a social life anymore. damn.

VIDEO VIDEO VIDEO :)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

sick and twisted movies with even more twisted endings are totally up my alley.

its odd that even though i have the means to get it now im not rushing to the store and grabbing it off the shelf. guess ill wait a LITTLE longer.

work has now officially become uber fun with nice supervisors/managers coupled with even nicer colleagues! haha. call me crazy but i DO look forward to work. its just never mundane and boring cos everyday is another equation with different variables.



oh yes. there will be blood.

this picture is MINE.

I'm so far gone now I been running on empty

I'm so far gone now

Do you wanna take me on?

tired. the only thing keeping me going is e pay. heh. the road is long, but my heart will go on. HAHA

and im getting so disgustingly addicted to the used. fuck someone just cut me.

The Used - Lunacy Fringe

fuck man. i totally got my ass kicked by the bloody drum pads today. add to that a new instructor that has a totally different teaching style. you get a pretty fucked up lesson. ARGH.

i pray for good fortune on my first day. hopefully i dont fuck up too badly.



oh that shirt has me going crazy.

I START ON MONDAY!!! damn im just really glad ive got a job. plus e place is fantastic too! so its a bonus.

and soon enough ill get the one item ive wanted for like the longest time.

last night was just so tragic. and i ended up tearing. god.



I've got a day and a reason, Why I should not believe in..anything, anymore

"this is an old song but it really means alot to us, cos i think we're all from a fucking small town and we all wanna get the fuck out."

i know i do. without a doubt.

it was great with you* today. :)